Fear of God

dear children of God,

today i worked for maybe 40 min. 30 if i concentrated hard enough. But i am thankful that i have the time to do today's QT. :)

lot of the times... old testaments don't have a very profound, holy msgs that come thru deep thinking. they are most of the time just very straight forward. God tells us to listen to Him, to follow His commands. and.. voila. that's all folks.

today's scripture talks about the people who were in awe of God's glory. they told Moses, hey, God's pretty awesome so we will do what He says from now on. God heard this and was happy. He said as long as you do what I say, you and your children will be blessed. simple, right? but times are different and we don't literally hear God's voice, nor do we have people like Moses who act as a direct mediator. it's simple in words. but with our flawed and weak human mind, it's not that simple to act upon it.

God wants to bless us. but most of the time, we're just not ready for that kind of blessing. so instead, God has no choice but to remind us not to stray too far away from Him. My mom was very sick about 3 years ago. she suffered from a small stroke and lost her memory for few hours. my sister had to withdraw from school one semester and went back to LA to help out my parents. I thought God was awful for causing something devastating to our family. especially my mom who has been nothing but a great Christian her entire life. long story short, after some time has passed and my mom got her health back, I realized how far away our family has gotten off path from God. And God had no choice but to do a dramatic gesture to wake us up. to help us see what was really going on. if God didn't do that, i know things could've been a lot worse if not fatal.

people (jews? the people Moses led out from egypt) were not very nice. i apologize for my lack of resourceful information, but the gist is that they were awful. i'm talking murder, theft, adultery, etc. God was angry and He did punish them. God is love but He is also a scary God. He will do what He has to do to make sure we stay right by him. and when we do, He blesses us to an unimaginable extend. today's scripture reminds me that having a fear of God isn't a bad thing because it keeps me in check. and out of fear comes respect and love. i know God loves me. But He is a disciplinarian. and i am a better daughter for it.

alright! finally, time to go home :) talk to u guys later. love you both.